Where did my motivation go? I feel like blah. All I've been into lately is getting wasted and partying the night away. El Ocho is back. This didn't used to be me. I have no idea why I do it so often. I have no idea what I'm doing. I've fallen behind on the mere two classes that I've taken. I'm considering dropping them before I get an F. I guess, that this time I've bitten more than I could chew. Again.
Ah. I just feel lost... again. Berkeley is a million miles away.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Superstar
Delusion. That's what I'm beginning to believe about my mental status. However, I think that the proper term needs one more word. Grandeur. Yes. That sounds more like it. Delusions of Grandeur. That's what I'm currently suffering. I had previously tittled this post "Dans Connection." But, I don't think that is the correct tittle for my current state of mind.
My current state of mind is that of discovery. I'm discovering that I'm not as intelligent as I previously believed. Case in point, my Astronomy class. I'm taking this class online. I bought the book. I registered online. I even registered online with the book's online tutorial. Still... I don't get it. Maybe the amount of partying that I did during my year of hiatus has had some effect on my brain.
Or maybe, perhaps, here I go feeding my delusion, I just need to ease into it. I just need to take 6 units instead of 9. Maybe, perhaps, I need to realize that I am no superstar. That I'm just me. Good'ol Carlos. Maybe, perhaps, I need to admit to myself that all superstars had a rough start when they are getting back into the same field in which they excelled.
On a side note. We are 2 days away from Valentines and it looks like it is going to be another year dans a date. Ah. Who cares right? At least I know I have friends that love me. And as one of them would say. Word.
My current state of mind is that of discovery. I'm discovering that I'm not as intelligent as I previously believed. Case in point, my Astronomy class. I'm taking this class online. I bought the book. I registered online. I even registered online with the book's online tutorial. Still... I don't get it. Maybe the amount of partying that I did during my year of hiatus has had some effect on my brain.
Or maybe, perhaps, here I go feeding my delusion, I just need to ease into it. I just need to take 6 units instead of 9. Maybe, perhaps, I need to realize that I am no superstar. That I'm just me. Good'ol Carlos. Maybe, perhaps, I need to admit to myself that all superstars had a rough start when they are getting back into the same field in which they excelled.
On a side note. We are 2 days away from Valentines and it looks like it is going to be another year dans a date. Ah. Who cares right? At least I know I have friends that love me. And as one of them would say. Word.
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